Yearning

I have found the last couple of days I have really been yearning to have my little asian princess. I feel so close to her but O so far away. I dont know if these feelings are confirmations for me or if Im really just having a hard time. Now dont get me wrong Im not feeling depressed or anything but do you ever just have to have a candy bar or one more bite of cake or you will just blow up?? That is how I feel I really just need to be able to hold my little one. I am hoping that our paper work is being looked at and that it will get back to us soon. This wait is very hard and the future is scary. But I am finding the scary parts are fine and Im narrowing my view on the fact that I will get to have that baby in my arms somewhat soon.