Monday, December 31, 2007

Looking back

It has been an amazing year and so I thought I would take this opportunity to journal this year in hopes to remember how we got where we are...
Never at the beginning of this year did I ever think we would be waiting for a referral for a baby from Vietnam NEVER! I have always, always wanted to adopt and have always talked about a China baby (really asian baby) and how I would love to adopt one but never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that dream would come true. I have to say that I know the Lord put that desire in my heart and Im so greatful to Rich and my supportive friends and family for helping me reach to make that dream come true. It all happened really in the beggining of the year when I just knew I wanted another baby, A BABY... but I had no desire to have another bio baby. I started to work on Rich... then one day at the mall we were eating lunch and this adorable Asian family had a baby and I just started to cry and Rich looked up and saw what I was looking at and said O wow you really want a baby huh and then said dont worry baby I will get you a baby! But then it really wasnt until late spring that we started talking more openly about it. For me it was a daily thought but something I was trying to ignore... we have a good thing going 2 kids, great kids, we can go anywhere with them and have no worries why add when we have this perfect thing going?? But the Lord pushed harder and so did I.
Have you ever felt so strongly about something that sitting there you just got the chills?? That is what would happen to me every time I prayed or even thought about adopting. So thats when the bricks started to fall right on my head, fresh smacks in the face leaving marks saying DUH lady its time to adopt! I decided to fast and that day at church my dear friend Tirsa announced that there would be an adoption workshop type deal that Friday and O my it was date night and we already had a sitter! And I also heard from one of our missionaries that he was adopted and what a great gift it was to him. Then a good friend told me her story about being a 3 month old baby on the plane that crashed in Operation Baby Lift in Vietnam. Things just came together. And when we went to the class another sweet friend talked about Vietnam and adopting from there. I just knew that was were my baby was going to be.
So here we are about 7 months later joy and tears and paper cuts and all that comes with an adoption and I am just overwhelmed with how it came to be. The Lord knows me so well and I am convinced that he put this desire in my heart since I was a child. Im blessed that he gave me a husband who has an open heart and also has the desire. I have two awesome kids who are so excited about their sister and they have never put doubts in my head that they wont love this little girl. I am blessed to have dear sweet awesome friends who continue to cheer us on and always ask what is happening and wanting to be in the know! Two of these great friends even included Malia this Christmas by giving her gifts, which warmed my heart to the core. I have a great sister who continues to support also.
So what a blessed and exciting year it has been and I can not wait for next year at this same time having little Malia trying to type while I am needing to do diaper changes and bottles. The kids have been great this year seeming to learn and grow so fast.
I am humbled by this year and looking forward to the next! Malia here we come, I cant believe we will be a family of five hopefully by summer definately by fall!!
So thank you to all my supportive friends and family, it has been a great year of growing and learnin
*Sorry that was a long one!

Friday, December 28, 2007

Baby so gross!

Dear sweet Santa brought Maddie this adorable baby....NOT adorable!!! This baby eats food and drinks a bottle then POOPS and PEES. Yes so gross, so first we tried on Christmas fed her bananas and a bottle and she had a major blow out on my floor. I thought we would be done with her for awhile but yesterday that dang baby kept saying how hungry she was so Maddie convinced me to help feed her again.. OK so we laid out paper towels and fed her well after feeding her Peas and a bottle I noticed there was water in her mouth so I dumped her out in the sink and it was sooo gross I started dry heaving... Im a easy puker anyways and after rinsing and helping her puke a few times I just about lost my lunch with her. Then we changed her diaper and let me tell you baby doll peas turns into real looking baby poo! SO GROSS... but I thought I would share my pain with all of you........ guess it will be good practice for me and my big helper!

Baby eat your peas
Oh isnt that sweet!!
OO isnt that disgusting!
O Maddie is happy and so is baby!
Guess I will be a good mommy and let her do it in rare occasions because I can only handle so much fake baby poo and vomit!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Christmas pix

The Wii

Kaden digging in
Oh ya Oh ya

The Night Before Christmas... in our new comfy jammiesMaddie with her haul
Kaden ripping in
No present unturned
One of Malias gifts



Yeah Christmas!

We had a great Christmas!! It started on Christmas Eve where we started a new tradition of drawing each others names and buying them a gift that would be open that night, and that was so much fun (Maddie wanted her own name though). So we looked at lights opened our Eve gifts and new jammies then off to read The Night before Christmas, and yeah off to bed!
Rich and I stayed up pretty later testing things out "WINK WINK" and we had told Kaden he was NOT allowed to wake us up before 5:30 and so right on the night I was aware of a scratching on my blanket and there he was. I asked him if he wanted to sleep with us for a while but that didnt work. LOL
So he woke up Maddie and we brushed our teeth and downstairs we went. I think it is safe to say they made out pretty well. As Maddie proclaimed "That Santa knows what hes doing!"
Last year it took them no time at all to open everything but this year it almost took an hour because they were taking a little more time with each gift so that was nice.
After finishing their own they opened up Malias gifts and it was very sweet because they were very gentle and caring with her stuff and said O Malia will like that!
We then had a Merry good time with the new Wii (I know have Wii elbow) and just hung out and cleaned up and watched movies played games and with all the new stuff!
We had friends over for dinner which was very nice and our families went to town with the Wii too. Ive been surprised how much I even like it!! After they left we cleaned up and watched more movies and played more and finally went to bed!
I love Christmas I love what it brings out in people. The love that you can even feel for a stranger while you let them ahead in line or not care so much when you get bumped in the overcrowded stores and of course the pure magic in your children's eyes as they see that yes Santa did come this year! Maddies first words Christmas morning was I saw Santa on our roof!
Hope you all had an awesome Christmas too!
** Our very best gift was on Christmas Eve learning that our dossier was safe and sound and in the hands of our agency to get translated!

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Wishing you..

..a Merry Christmas. I do love this time of year, I love the music that comes with the Holidays and the lights and the joy. Today in church we had so many talented people share their musical abilities and I was in complete awwww. I got chills and teary with a few of the songs!
And now after sitting and watching The Grinch who Stole Christmas (I love that movie) Kaden asked if he could help open Malias gifts on Christmas.... well this was part of the plan and I thought it was sweet that he was excited to do that, it is baby stuff and he knows it is nothing he will want to play with.
I feel like I miss her so much and yet I have never met her I haven't even seen her, heck she might not even be born, but I'm guessing with the love fest that comes with the Holidays I am missing her terribly and feeling an emptiness in our home.
There are many families waiting for their babies right now. There are families that I know that are waiting and will probably not get approval for their babies. I'm continuing to pray for these families and for our own. I know that we have been blessed with the time line we have been given so far. It never happens quick enough but we are lucky to not be a family loosing their referral. So for now Malia is in my heart and in my home in Spirit.
*Hope this wasn't a downer post, just wishing and hoping for this little one to get here soon!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Elephant in the room

We had a white elephant Christmas Party last night and it was a blast!! Now here are the awaited and feared pictures... I am only posting a few tame pics and Im keeping a few for blackmail later (Scott)!! We had about 11 couples, probly a few more than the house fit comfortably but everyone seemed to have a good time! Its always fun to see people let go a little and have some fun (Doug).... and everyone stayed good except baby Jude who let loose and lost his clothes half way through the night!! I am always shocked to see how dark my hair is in pictures, so included a pic of me with the others below. There were some really awesome white elephant gifts, the Zims brought a huge cutout of the Carls Jr. dude and it was so stinking funny to see that guy opened and he ended up getting stolen a couple times I think. I ended the night with a headache from laughing so hard all night, I thought my cheeks were going to fall off, always a good sign of a fun night! Any ways Im so glad we hosted and so glad its over and thanks to everyone who came we had so much fun!! Whos hosting next year??

Its party time!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Not paper airplanes

No not paper airplanes but there are a stack of papers that are in an airplane flying far far away!! I have been checking the Fedex website everyday to see if our dossier was done in San Fran and guess what... it is, it was mailed off today and is expected to arrive on Friday the 21st yes like 3 days away isnt that amazing?!? I feel very blessed to have this gift and though I would be excited anyways it does seem like a Christmas gift from up above!
Now we still have quite a wait ahead of us but the steps keep coming and I am feeling truely blessed and very excited! Please everyone pray that our dossier will find its way safely to its destination! Thanks

Monday, December 17, 2007

Christmas Recital

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Maddies Recital

Here is Maddies recital dance Beauty and the Beast. She is on the far right struggling with those dang bows they made us put in her hair. I love at the end when she waves!! She didnt have one ounce of stage fright, she is a true showman or woman! Im so proud she did so good and I wish you could see her face better in this because she looks so dang cute!

video

*She had a second dance that was so cute but it is to big to upload. Im very sad because it happened to be the cutest one!

My Dancing Princess

I recorded the dancing on ice Nutcracker for Madison knowing she would love it and boy was I right. After watching one dance she made me stop it so she could change into her Belle dress and some socks so that she could skate around the floor. She did this for a whole hour!!

video

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Cruel or just pretty dang funny?

So I got to babysit little Blake today and boy does he have a whole lot of hair so Maddie and I decided to have a little fun with him!!!





Ok yes he is a boy and yes that is not nice but I could not resist and Madison absolutely thought it was great! I also had to test out the sizes and if they would hold in hair that thin! So Scott eat your heart out isnt he adorable! And for the future sorry Blake!


Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Something sweet

As I was doing Maddies hair this morning we were talking about the snow and how she wanted to make a snow angel when she asked if my sister had gloves? I said yes Im sure Aunt Becki has gloves and she said no not Becki your sister far away I said Becki is my sister and Im sure she has gloves, she then said no your sister far far away Malia OOOOO my daughter YOUR sister I said LOL As I felt a bit teary she said O yes my sister does she have gloves so she doesnt get cold?? I just thought how sweet and simple of a thing she was concerned about. And though I dont know if my little Malia is even born and I for sure dont know if she will have any gloves but for sure she will have some when she gets home! I am at this time very thankful for my little girl who is so sweet to be worried about her baby sister!

Sunday, December 9, 2007

He shoots he..............

SCORES

video

Yesterday Kadens team had their 2nd game and had a great win!! All the same boys have been on the same teams for b-ball and football so the have a great comradery(SP?)! BUT even though we have very talented boys we always seem to lose, so anytime we score we get a little overjoyed!! Kaden made a basket and we were very excited and we ended up winning the game! The coaches have been doing an awesome job teaching them new skills! YAAA KADEN!!

*Note the pumping of the fists and skipping after, he was very proud and excited for himself!

Thursday, December 6, 2007

The Wait

Well its up to FEDEX now! Madison and I went to the Walgreens this morning for my 8 new passport photos (I had mine but couldnt fine 1 so I had to redue them all) and they werent ready well I let the lady know that they were supposed to be ready last night and that I need them NOW and so she got on it but then proceeded to talk to the other lady about the shirt I had worn in the picture and that I shouldve been sent home to change because of the color. WELL I was about to let her have it but I laid low but she knew I was annoyed and when we were done she left me with this.... bye and try to have a better day! LOL So then off to the bank for a money order then to FEDEX where I had a million papers needed 2 envelopes to mail in and one going international and one not and when trying to fill out the Vietnam address I needed help and asked the man for help saying I dont suppose you know anything about Vietnam addresses his reply......... well unfortunately I spents some time there a long time ago.... well DANG IT I need help and Im dealing with a disgruntled Vet YIKES! But I remained calm even though he decided he didnt want to help me with my Vietnam adoption papers and finally after 15 minutes I got some help! I understand he probly had a lot of memories.
So that was my morning, I was so excited to get that mailed off and have it out of my hands! I am no longer a paper chaser I am a waiting mommy! One of my fellow waiting moms shared this poem and I thought I would share with you all....

WAIT
Desperately, helplessly, longing, I cried:
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the master so gently said, "Child, you must wait.""Wait?
You say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By Faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance and YOU tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a `yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a `no' to which I can resign.
And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait.
"So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting…for what?
"He seemed, then, to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,
And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause the mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want—But, you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save…(for a start),
But, you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.
You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that "My grace is sufficient for Thee.
"Yes, your dreams for your love
done overnight would come true,
But, Oh, the Loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!
So, be silent, My Child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And thought oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still, "WAIT."
Author unknown

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Kadens new smile

We have known for quite awhile that Kaden was going to need braces and today he finally got them on! He has been very excited about it, appearently is the cool thing to have right now. He chose red and green for Christmas and they look really cool. He is very pleased and Im happy that he will have a great smile!

Before and After

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

blood sweat and tears..

This is what blood sweat and tears looks like.....

After 2 trips to Denver 1/2 tank of gas and $4 here is our completed dossier! Isnt it beautiful! I cant tell you the load that was lifted off my shoulders having this done and now the next step is to send it to be translated, but after I send it off I will never see it again. So with a nervousness I cant explain I will intrust FEDEX to take special care of my paper baby. After picking it back up today Madison had to celebrate by shopping of course, and here is what we found!

Celebritory shopping

Monday, December 3, 2007

Awareness

This is a great little video and an insight to where my little Malia might be or will be. Enjoy, it was very well done!

Sunday, December 2, 2007

A Fun Name Game

I came across this on another blog that I follow and thought it was fun so Im hoping my good friends will follow suit and do the same!

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Commander Snowball

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favoritecookie)
Grasshopper Oatmill Raisin

3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of firstname, first three letters of your last)
K Jef

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favoriteanimal)
Red Cat or Red Dog (Im not sure my favorite animal anymore)

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where youwere born)
Leann Provo

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of yourlast name, first 2 letters of your first)
Jef Kr

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, first toolthat comes to mind, put “The” at the beginning)
Yellow the Screwdriver

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Lou Kent

9. STRIPPER NAME : (favorite candy, the name of yourfavorite perfume/cologne)
Chocolate Escape

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle)
Illeen Kent

Ok I have some awesome names right!! LOL

Saturday, December 1, 2007

!!HALLELUJAH!!

SO YES FINALLY!!! We checked the mail today and there it was in all its glory my golden ticket my hoorah hoorah my joy and my YES! The 171-H came!! Could you just pee your pants! I almost did! I couldnt believe it came and that I finally had it in my hands, it took me about 45 minutes to put it down and now I feel like locking it up somewhere!
So next step.... On Monday Tirsa (life saver and go to girl) is going with me to the Secretary of State where I will hand over all my hard work for them to certify? and State Seal all of our stuff.... then we will get it back and mail it off to where it will get translated to Vietnamese and then off Vietnam where we will be logged in and await a referral!!
I think that is how it will all go down.
We are so excited to be able to move on to the next step, I felt on Thursday that it was going to come this weekend after I said a prayer and lookie lookie!! I appreciate all the support we have receieved and I know that waiting for this next part will also be very had but I am excited beyond words to be here!
Lots and Lots of Love.... me!