Sunday, August 29, 2010

238 Refreshing

So I have had a horrible attitude about church for quite awhile. As in when we are approaching the church I just want to turn around and go home. Its been really hard the last year + since our ward split and I feel like most of my friends went to other wards. Then being in my dungeon (nursery) not having a chance to meet the new families or keep up with the old ones, I have just felt like an outcast.
I have let those feelings over rule my love for the church and my Faith. Its been an icky battle that I knew was ridiculous and Ive been trying to fight it. After last Sunday I told Rich I just needed to have a couple Sundays off.. that was my plan.
But this morning he let me know that Kaden had a talk during Sacrament.. of course I didnt want to miss that so I went. Im so glad I did!! Not only did Kaden do a great job with his talk but I really enjoyed Sunday as a whole for the first time in a very long time.
Our Missionary's did a musical number that brought tears to my eyes. I wish I could have recorded it because it was so beautiful, they are a couple of very talented boys!!
Then after 1 hour of nursery I was able to go sit with friends and attend RS and listen to women talk about their VT experiences. It was exactly what I needed.
Even though I might not be having the best personal experience at church I know that the Church is true, I know that I have been letting my hurt feelings ruin that for me and I know that I need to make a better effort and make it right!!
We came home and for the first time in quite awhile I didnt go crawl on my bed and hide lol! I did throw on my super comfy VS Bronco's sweats on and enjoy some Sunday football with the fam! It was awesome!!


tamiz said...

YAY! I'm so glad you had a good day at church. It's really time for you to be let go from nursury. It's been almost 2 years now. That's way too many runny noses and dirty diapers. I want to see a pic of your VS Bronco's sweats!

alison said...

You were due for a good day! Glad you finally got it!

Angela said...

There are many Sundays that I feel like staying home as well. Especially when I have the kids by myself or just am having a down day. I for one am glad you came to church Sunday! The Elder's song was beautiful, Kaden's talk was great and I really enjoyed sitting by you in RS. You are a great friend and I hope you know that you are special to me and to others-- even if you are in nursery! :)